Monthly Archives: October 2012

I’m still noticing the trend of posting less these days.  I really don’t like it; I can’t help but wonder what it means.

I’m also noticing that I’m lazier recently, and I really don’t like that either.  Maybe it’s just not getting enough sleep?  I need to get better at dealing with the workday schedule–it really requires a different approach to things than I could take back when I was at  Stanford.

I just…don’t know.  Things feel different.  I think it’s just me trying to get used to a different lifestyle.  It’s so very much not as “free” as I used to be, and I think part of me is totally freaking out because I can not, cannot, not not back down on all these other things that are so important to me.

The weird thing is, it feels different than it did during last year’s summer too, I think.  I dunno, really.

Random little things have been making me feel a little bit bad recently, I think.  It’s really stupid and insignificant things that I don’t want to admit to because they’re so trivial.  But perhaps I’m not in quite the best mood because of it?  I’m not sure.

I think I both need to make sure I catch up on sleep, and go and do things that make me feel good.

So cool!!!  I want to be there!!


Now that I know the whole dance, it is really time to think about styling.  After watching many videos, it’s really cool how there are so many different ways to express the same dance!  But, the one I referenced is still the closest to how I want to dance it, even though it is not as close to the original choreo, and it’s a different cover of the song.


Yeah, shows what I mean.

Worst meal I’ve made in quite some time…sheesh.  Meat was somewhat suspect so I’m basically just eating eggs and rice.  And I’m slightly allergic to egg too!  Not being able to cook as regularly as I used to has made defrosting meat scheduling impossible.

Well, at least it’s still much better than that first time when I just threw frozen potsticker onto a heated pan with no oil and was like “…this is not right.”

Just sent out 3 letters, but I have so many more I want to write T_T

So much music I want to make too!  Sheesh!  I was in R’s room yesterday listening to music and had a bunch of tunes inspire me.

Want to draw too!

I feel like everything are a mess…even my grammar. orz  even my emoticons!!!  My body and mind are still figuring everything out.  I’m out of the *bad place*, and we are not *squeezing the juice* anymore.  But am I really a *happy camper* again?  Nnngggghhh, it is being the *silly cows*.  Sometimes I am so *frumple*.

(for the 99% of you I just lost there, I just started talking like the Orz from Star Control 2 for some random reason)

It’s just like in Heart Beats:

(Tokidoki) Fuan ga koborete 
(DAME da na) Mata KIMI no PEESU 
(Itsu no ma ni ka) Boku no kimochi made wakaranaku natte shimaisou da

(Every now and then)  My insecurity would surface 
(This is not good) I’ve gotten caught up in your pace again 
(Before I knew it) I almost can’t even understand my own feelings anymore

Aa  MAJI de dou ni ka narisou

Ahh I feel like something is seriously going wrong with me

It’s fine though…I’m happy.  Just, kind of, still floating around in the air though, not grounded.  Or maybe I landed, but I don’t know where I am, and have no map.

No matter what, just keep on dancing, drawing, writing, making music…these are the things that let my emotions out, keep me sane, and remind me of the beauty in life.


The other thing to remember is that CHIPTUNES ARE AWESOME and provide fuel for living.

Also Heart Beats is really fun.

Whelp…I made a good effort, and lots and lots and lots of progress, but it looks like I’m not going to finish with decorations today.  I’m very close, though!  I just have to put up all the face/dish towels, plus some ornament stuff, and then that’s pretty much it.  Phew!…

Yesterday I did all the shelf decorations and wall scrolls. Today I’ve managed to put up all of the non-Sanrio posters! I managed to use up 100% of the North and East-facing walls too, so it’ll be nicely separated out. Next step is to get all of the Sanrio posters up, and then fill out all the remaining space with the rest of the decorations I have. Might even be able to finish all of this by the end of the day! Going to have to move my computer desk temporarily though, so I can have ladder access to that wall. What’s that? Yeah, I’m actually using a ladder for this process…

Changing the acoustics of my room, one decoration at a time…


Other notes…

I’m also doing a pretty good job of making sure all of the heavier posters are not so high up; that way if they fall and I need to remount them I don’t need the ladder.  Also, I still have some room for growth…my closet has two mirror-doors and I’m using the front one to put 2 wall scrolls on.  If I’m in a pinch I can put stuff on the back mirror too, though it means I…won’t have a usable mirror anymore.

Even if the South and West-facing walls aren’t enough (note that the South wall is largely taken up by my two bookshelves (which hardly have any books in them, just shelf decorations) and the window, I still have both sides of the door to take up.  And if that still isn’t enough for everything, I can start exploring other options…like the table surface, or the back wall inside the closet.  In the worst case, I can just spill over the extra decorations and bring them to work to decorate my wall space there.  Still no idea what I’m going to do about my car, which so far only has the Hello Kitty steering wheel cover and seatbelt covers, and the Little Twin Stars magnet (which fits perfectly onto my gasoline cover).

Right now all of the Hello Kitty figurines, as well as the decorative stamps, are on my desk at work.  There’s enough room for those on my shelves here though, if I decide that I want to take them back.  So things are pretty flexible.

shelf and deck decorations…done!  Wall scrolls are all up too!  Next step is all the posters…then fill up all of the remaining space (will there even be any??) with all of the other stuff I have.