Monthly Archives: April 2012

“Why do I compose? I do it because I feel truly happy when creating music. These melodies carry all of my wishes and dreams. They provide outlets for feelings such as pain and sadness. They breathe meaning into my life where there was none before. I hope you may find some meaning in them as well.”



You kiss your loved ones and put your helmet on, get in your vehicle and buckle in. Your team clears you to go. Your utter determination assures you that losing is not an option. You clutch your hands on the steering wheel, ready to go. 3…2…1… Tonight’s theme is “The Driving Competition.”

My entry:

I already knew what I wanted to do before compo even started, and it had nothing to do with the theme: remix A-zu-ra and starla’s entries from last week.

And I did exactly that.  And it turned out amazing.  One of my best OHCs, up there along with The Ecstasy of Life and Pixel by Pixel.  There’s actually a triangle bass part that got muted somehow that’s supposed to play at 2:24, but other than that I can’t really say that I would have changed anything, really.

The main A-zu-ra melody line is vaguely reminiscent of a Willrock-style solo lead somehow, which is cool.  I think it’s the guitar solo-like riff at 1:26 that really does it.

Yeah.  This one was really fun.

Why I ditch class

For every hour of class that I go to, I could be doing something else.  Many times, there isn’t that much impact on my grade, or my life.

At the beginning of the quarter, before CS194 lectures stopped, I had 2.5 hours of C348b, 2.5 hours of CS244, and 2.5 hours of CS194 every week (they each met TuesThurs).  That’s 7.5 hours in total each week.

What can I do in 7.5 hours?  Well, let’s see…

Yeah, those all got written over a combined sum of ~7 hours.  Think about the value of either option.


Throw in another 7 hours and you’ll get these two:

…the latter of which has already touched many people’s lives.


Three weeks gets you, an entire 2-hour long album…

(note: not meant to be a serious argument; you can’t substitute timeframes directly like this.  but, it’s still pretty elucidating ;P)

I’m such an ISFJ.

Still can’t get over how well describes me.  However, it’s missing some stuff that’s in, like:

ISFJs have a rich inner world that is not usually obvious to observers. They constantly take in information about people and situations that is personally important to them, and store it away. This tremendous store of information is usually startlingly accurate, because the ISFJ has an exceptional memory about things that are important to their value systems. It would not be uncommon for the ISFJ to remember a particular facial expression or conversation in precise detail years after the event occured, if the situation made an impression on the ISFJ.

This is why I’ve started becoming fond of the ISFJ description over the Enneagram 2 one.  Besides Myers-Briggs just being more well known, ISFJ provides more of a broad picture of many things, whereas the Enneagram diagnosis is more focused on the “core” need to help and be loved.  I will admit that the Enneagram descriptions give more detail into what happens when I become unhealthy versus happy.

But anyways, I definitely have that sort of small observant memory recall.  In fact, when I met my other ISFJ, I told her how I remembered this one time we were getting into someone’s car and she sort of turned to me and softly asked, “wait, should we put our things in the trunk…?”.  After that she just dropped it and got in without saying anything, which is why that was one of those moments when I realized, “wow, this person is really like me”.  And I still remember that moment.

Similarly, I noticed all of the little things that my onee-chan was doing today when no one was watching, like picking up litter and such.  And I was also keeping an eye on K throughout a good portion of the night.  It’s not like I watch -everybody- all the time–for instance, I didn’t notice when E left–but I notice a lot of these things, because I look out for people.

Also, I know I’ve already gone over this in a previous post, but =dude=.

ISFJs learn best by doing, rather than by reading about something in a book, or applying theory. For this reason, they are not likely to be found in fields which require a lot of conceptual analysis or theory. They value practical application. Traditional methods of higher education, which require a lot of theorizing and abstraction, are likely to be a chore for the ISFJ. The ISFJ learns a task best by being shown its practical application. Once the task is learned, and its practical importance is understood, the ISFJ will faithfully and tirelessly carry through the task to completion. The ISFJ is extremely dependable.

Helllo CS?  Not only does this relate to the fact that I skip all my lectures and stuff, but this also speaks to the fact that my favorite CS class was CS107 and basically all of the higher level courses have been “a chore” and impractical, whereas game programming is extremely fun for me because, well, it’s practical, tangible, and important.


The ISFJ has an extremely well-developed sense of space, function, and aesthetic appeal. For that reason, they’re likely to have beautifully furnished, functional homes. They make extremely good interior decorators. This special ability, combined with their sensitivity to other’s feelings and desires, makes them very likely to be great gift-givers – finding the right gift which will be truly appreciated by the recipient.

My onee-chan always comments on this!


More so than other types, ISFJs are extremely aware of their own internal feelings, as well as other people’s feelings. They do not usually express their own feelings, keeping things inside. If they are negative feelings, they may build up inside the ISFJ until they turn into firm judgments against individuals which are difficult to unseed, once set. Many ISFJs learn to express themselves, and find outlets for their powerful emotions.

Y, this seems familiar, yes?  Also, lately music production has become one of my outlets.  It’s kind of amazing that it can be an outlet, when you think about it–the only reason it is is because I can write full songs so damn quickly…


ISFJs live in a world that is concrete and kind. They are truly warm and kind-hearted, and want to believe the best of people. They value harmony and cooperation, and are likely to be very sensitive to other people’s feelings. People value the ISFJ for their consideration and awareness, and their ability to bring out the best in others by their firm desire to believe the best.

Me and my onee-chan were definitely talking about the “firm desire to believe the best” tonight…I’m also really happy because I know that sometimes (not always!  but sometimes!) I really am able to bring out the best in others.


The ISFJ feels a strong sense of responsibility and duty. They take their responsibilities very seriously, and can be counted on to follow through. For this reason, people naturally tend to rely on them. The ISFJ has a difficult time saying “no” when asked to do something, and may become over-burdened. In such cases, the ISFJ does not usually express their difficulties to others, because they intensely dislike conflict, and because they tend to place other people’s needs over their own. The ISFJ needs to learn to identify, value, and express their own needs, if they wish to avoid becoming over-worked and taken for granted.

How many times have I ranted about how no one else is dependable as I am…?  Also, my onee-chan was in awe at how high I scored on conscientiousness on the big 5 personality test I took. (97 out of 100!  Of course, I also scored 1 out of 100 for extroversion, which is awesome.)


The ISFJ is warm, generous, and dependable. They have many special gifts to offer, in their sensitivity to others, and their strong ability to keep things running smoothly. They need to remember to not be overly critical of themselves, and to give themselves some of the warmth and love which they freely dispense to others.

It’s like someone is writing my autobiography!!!  Seriously! *flails hands*


While their work ethic is high on the ISFJ priority list, their families are the centers of their lives. ISFJs are extremely warm and demonstrative within the family circle–and often possessive of their loved ones, as well. When these include Es who want to socialize with the rest of the world, or self-contained ITs, the ISFJ must learn to adjust to these behaviors and not interpret them as rejection.

Right, this used to happen with Kiki.  But wait, it gets better…


Being SJs, they place a strong emphasis on conventional behavior (although, unlike STJs, they are usually as concerned with being “nice” as with strict propriety); if any of their nearest and dearest depart from the straight-and-narrow, it causes the ISFJ major embarrassment: the closer the relationship and the more public the act, the more intense the embarrassment (a fact which many of their teenage children take gleeful advantage of).

Didn’t this just happen like a week ago!?  It’s the reason I chewed out two of my friends over email, and subsequently felt really really shitty about it…


It doesn’t really matter whether or not the whole personality classification system is “right” or not–you just can’t argue that it’s extremely useful simply by virtue of conveying an obscenely accurate picture of my persona.

I need a better emoticon for sadness.  =( is more like frowny.  :( is the same.  =/ is like “oh no…that’s terrible”, and :/ is just weird, and good gosh I’m not going to use :-/, that’s just dated.

T.T and T_T are okay but they’re like obnoxiously sad.  >.< and >_< are more like eek oof.  -_- is more like “gimme a break”.

I guess there’s not really anything.  .(-.-). maybe?  -.- isn’t that bad, but still…I don’t think any are really good.

Sword and Sworcery


Sword and Sworcery isn’t the first thing that comes to mind when I think of pixel art…usually I think of something more along the lines of FEZ:

Which is also extremely beautiful, in its own way.  But this post isn’t about FEZ.  I don’t even own FEZ, though the more I learn about it the more I am convinced that I must play it, along with Mega Man 9 and Mega Man 10 and SSX4, etc.


But anyways, Sword and Sworcery is a pretty interesting game.  It’s definitely an artistic game, one that you wouldn’t play for the “raw pure gameplay” like you would for Tetris: The Grand Master.  It has a certain interesting aesthetic throughout, but I think its biggest achievement is simply how amazing it manages to look.

I know we’re all supposed to be kind of over this “games as art” thing and we shouldn’t really be nudging all of our friends and saying “look look!  games are art!” because that battle is either already won or too old and pointless to win anymore, but…still, part of me feels a certain sense of satisfaction knowing that if I showed a screenshot of Sword and Sworcery to someone, I could point it out and say, look.  Isn’t this beautiful?

Sword and Sorcery is out on both iOS and Steam, so you don’t really have that many excuses not to get it.

I don’t really follow the whole ME3 thing that closely, but I thought this was a good take:

“If you were a big cheese over at EA, you be laughing at the sheer genius of the current situation: your studio made a game with a crappy ending, but still sold millions of units.  The ending was so crappy, and people were so pissed, that they demanded a new ending, which you can charge them for.  No matter what, you’re making shitloads of cash. You’d be the fucking Mr. Burns of video games.  In what other industry do people willingly pay a creative team more money to redo something they should’ve gotten right in the first place?  I can’t think of a single one.  So what the hell is wrong with us?”

Richard Dillio, Mess Effect 3


You’re awash in a sea of emotion, the ebb and flow pulling you simultaneously towards happiness and grief. As you finally wash ashore, you’re confronted with nothingness. You’ve lost your grip, there’s no foundation to build on, you’re perspective has been torn asunder as you struggle to identify with what you even are. Tonights theme is “Mental Breakdown.”

My entry:

I decided to use this particular OHC to prep for Ludum Dare (which was this past weekend), so I decided to try and make a bunch of different songs, all centered around the same thematic motif (since that’s a great technique to use when making an OST).

I ended up with 4 different songs, which you hear in order.  The “title screen” music has two different sections, which each feature a different theme/motif.  Then I just try and reuse those for the other 3 songs.  Sometimes it’s a little subtle, but you should be able to hear it if you’re paying attention.

My personal favorite part is the intro of the victory music–using the “cumshot” motif that gets tossed around OHC a lot (E F G C ^ C).  I thought those 2 bars were just genius.

This was a lot of fun, and prepped me well too, so big success here.