Monthly Archives: August 2009

Food For Thought

Originally posted at Sexy Videogameland (which ironically I found while googling “SVGL”).

“Instead of making games that immediately make sense to everyone and everyone agrees about, it would be better to have dimensions to games that cannot easily be explained. That’s the kind of game that people remember ten or fifteen years down the road. There were more of those games during the Super Nintendo era compared with today.”

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New Song

First time i’ve made anything in =months=.  What you hear here (haha, “hear here”) is a quick intro I threw together (that may or may not end up working…hopefully it does though) and then without any transition (lol) you hear this chorus idea I developed yesterday.  Unfortunately I realized after I put it into production that it shares some undeniable similarities to “When September Ends”.  DAMN YOU GREEN DAY!!! -_-

But this could be good.  I’m looking forward to it.  I’m almost afraid to stop working on it because i’ll lose that vibe that I get when I come across a good idea and start working.  But if I -don’t- stop working on it, it’ll end up consuming all of my time.  Agh!

Hopefully I can make this song more melodically complex and less melodically repetitive when compared to my previous works.  I also need -countermelodies-.  Maybe call-and-response type things.

I was also really confused as to what the drum track would look like, but on a whim I just started laying something down and turned on the shuffle a little bit to give it a small swing feel.  It actually worked, yay!

The lead synth is chiptuney too, that was deliberate.

Pangya

Okay, just for kicks, I did a short test run of Pangya (still like that video).  My verdict?  It’s basically Gunbound (even uses the same anti-hack program)…but 3d, and instead of shooting people you play golf.  That’s it!  As a side note the same company also does “Trickster Online” which looks similar to RO.  It probably would be decent fun, provided you have friends to play with (I don’t).  I’m slightly impressed because the 3d characters are actually somewhat appealing–usually 3d models pale so much in comparison to good old sprites.  I guess those Korean artists really know what they’re doing…

Expenses

Okay, I’ve probably spent a lot on Sanrio (or similar) products in the past 2 or so years.  Even if you don’t count my totally awesome hello kitty arcade stick.  Probably a few hundred dollars.  Especially if you lump in all of the stuff I got at Fanime (another $100+).

The good news is that I’ve spent almost 0 on video games.  When I’m at some electronics store, there’s not even a reason for me to buy anything.  The only things I have at college are my computer(s) and my DS, and for my DS I have homebrew so I can just d/l everything (I use it for TGM most of the time anyways).  And I don’t remember the last time I ever bought a PC game.  Or a game of any sort, actually.  Probably the last time was Kirby Super Star Ultra, but that was a gift too, so it doesn’t even count!

If you look back at what I’ve been playing–Super Metroid, TGM, DotA, Starcraft, D2, BeatmainaIIDX, Visual Novels, Typomino…I’m being frighteningly efficient with gaming in terms of amount spent (basically 0).

Ink refills

I made the mistake of not performing quite enough research.

I bought a pair of my now-utterly-beloved Sanrio ballpoint pens but after a while the first ran out of ink.  This was really frightening to me because it was the best ballpoint I had ever used (not that I’ve really used anything else other than cheap-o freebie ballpoint pens anyways).  Looking at the refill I noticed that it was the PILOT BRFN-10F refill.  So I asked my dad to get me some of those.  He said that those were japanese refills and that there was an equivalent USA one.  Ok, fine.  So i went with that.

I’ve been using the new refills for a long while now and I -know- that they aren’t as good.  The shape is different, but that shouldn’t really matter on its own…

But turns out what I got (or, more accurately, what was gotten for me) was the Pilot Dr. Grip refill, when I really wanted the Pilot Dr. Grip Center of Gravity refill. (“67% more write-out than standard retractable ball point pens”, yay).

Time to go out and get myself a crapload of these.  For anyone who’s reading, you can expect my letters to all look a lot nicer from now on. Whee!

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On a somewhat related note, I don’t think I will ever use a moleskine.  It’s so sleek, so clean and simple and unobtrusive…it totally clashes with my inner self, which instead screams for something like this:

 

Kind of like how I never even considered getting an iPhone because there’s NO CELL PHONE CHARM SLOT.  fail, Apple.  FAIL.

Resolutions for Fall quarter

Okay, traditionally I really haven’t liked the whole resolution thing, but after the smattering success (well, at least in some ways) that was Spring quarter, I guess maybe I’ll give it another shot.  It’s always good to be working towards something.  Maybe not =actively= working towards something, but it’s always good to at least have something to work towards.

But first lets look at how this Summer has panned out.  What happened to the things I was supposed to get done?
-Well, I learned the 32 sword form.  It’s still kind of shaky, but at least I -know- it now, which is what I wanted.  Yay!
-I managed to get through research.  Was it as good as it could have been?  Probably not.  But at least I can’t really write it off as a failure, since in the end I managed to turn things around a bit and actually do something worthwhile.  The weird part is that even though the summer is over, I’m probably still going to continue with the project.  Or, I “should”.  Have to be careful about that word though.  But really, it doesn’t really make sense to drop it just because I feel a little uncomfortable–pushing outside your comfort zone -is- something that should be done every now and then, and there have been good things (relatively) coming out of this so far…
-The license has yet to be attained.  I’ve got 2 or so more weeks.
-anime wallpapers and music have been taken care of.
-music is a neverending battle, but I’ve been faring alright at least.
-transferring stuff between computers is done.  This’ll probably be a lot easier in college when my two computers aren’t on different floors of the building.
-Bonus card from sanrio has been claimed.
-Classes for next quarter are set.
-I haven’t visited the field yet.  But it’s not getting torn down yet anyways.
-JD Salinger books have not been read.  Unfortunately that was kind of a mistaken impulse buy on my part, I don’t think I even like a lot of his other stuff other than Catcher in the Rye.  I’ve got much more appealing things to read (Visual Novels!  Light Novels!) so this can be dropped.
-I played through Henry Hatsworth!  Amazing mirror and super star ultra are next.
-Xanga posts are done.
-I’ve uploaded most of the stuff i have onto youtube.  There’s ugly issues with copyrighted audio, but eh, what can you do (stupid…).  I still have to revamp my website though, and add updated links.
-Nanoha pics are done.
-Band scrapbook…has not received enough attention.  It’s going to take a while, but I really should just get it out of the way as soon as possible.
-I have enough anime at the moment, probably.
-I haven’t even begun to look through real photos.
-haven’t started SDL.

All in all, not a bad job.  Add to that that I learned colemak too.

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So what needs to happen for Fall?  Well, a lot of things.  I don’t know if I can really cover them all, but I’ll try.  I do like to be realistic though, so I’ll try to avoid making resolutions that I can’t see myself going through with.  I don’t really like aiming -too- high.

First, an easy one.  M rank in TA Death.  I can do it with enough practice.  TGM is an unbelievably amazing game anyways, so there’s virtually no motivation needed.  I’ll probably have more free time in the Fall too.

Next, a hard one.  Find some sense of the Timm[ie] I used to be.  That happy-go-luckiness that I’ve lost.  Now, this doesn’t mean that I want to go back to being the person I was a few years ago.  I’m not quite so naive now…I know (well, I think) that despite how much I keep saying “I haven’t really changed that much” I have matured in some good ways.  I still don’t really have a clue what I’m doing when it comes to certain things (then again, who does…), but I’ve made some subtle progress.  Still, I want to be happy again, to have faith again.  I think I’m slowly getting there, and there are some things (and some people) that have helped me.
I was reading (mostly out of curiosity) about the Enneagram personality classifications and was particularly struck (stricken?) by the characterization of the Two (Helper type):
“Gaining the love of others is important to Twos because they fear that they are not loved for themselves alone. They feel that they will be loved only if they can earn love by always being good and by constantly sacrificing themselves for others. In a word, they fear that others would not love them unless they made others love them. (Twos could be briefly characterized as persons who, fearing that they are unlovable, spend their lives trying to make people love them.) Naturally, that creates a deep source of hidden aggression, and if people do not respond to them as they want, average to unhealthy Twos become increasingly resentful. But since they cannot consciously own up to their aggressive feelings, they express them indirectly, in manipulative behavior they disavow. It is mind-boggling to see how badly unhealthy Twos can treat others while justifying everything they do. But no matter how destructive their actions are, unhealthy Twos must persuade themselves that they have nothing but love and the purest of good intentions at heart.”
Well, first of all I can’t say for sure that I’m a Two.  But this passage was kind of like a slap in the face, because it almost (not quite) describes what’s happened to me in the past year or two.  So what’s the solution?  Well, it’s not really that clear.  But I think I need to get away from the trap of blaming other people for this rut that I’m in.  From a practicality standpoint, blaming other people does no good because you can’t really change everybody.  From an emotional standpoint, blaming other people is bad because it makes you hate them and lose faith in your friends (as much as I like hating people, there’s a right way and a wrong way to go about doing it).  So I need to try and work towards several things:
-Complaining more.  This may sound “bad” and even contradictory but it’s necessary because I end up blaming people for not helping me when really, I never asked for help.
-Work towards relationships.  Using FB as the new AIM can probably help with this, but somehow I need to put in some real work in order to establish the kind of relationships that I want–I can’t just rely on what I had during high school.
-Think more positively about the relationships I do have.  In the past I would reflect on how =blessed= and lucky I was to have such great friends.  Recently it’s been almost the opposite.  Yeah, I’ve become disillusioned.  Yes, there has been good reason for being disillusioned…but again, I can’t blame other people, so instead I should just not be so demanding.
I think if anything will make my junior year better it’ll be this.

Ok next, some more tangible things.  I need to delve into coding (and my major!) a little more.  SDL is a great place to start with this since I’ve been meaning to do something with it -anyways-.  I need to get some kind of tangible finished project up–right now I basically have nothing.  There’s also other things like project euler, etc etc that are more actual CS stuff.  Those are good too, but I hesitate to actually commit myself to doing all of that because I fear I lack enough motivation.

As for classes…well, I’m not sure.  In keeping with the theme of really trying to dive into my major, I should really be trying to go above and beyond when I can.  But I also keep on making the resolution to not work as hard because I get good enough grades and I need to socialize more.  Well, I don’t know.  It’s a balance, really.  I think I need to never outprioritize work over socialization, but at the same time I should look for ways to “work harder” in an interesting way.  Hard to explain, but I think I get the idea.

Exercise.  Oof.  I really couldn’t care less about the fact that I’m built like a twig, but the fact that my stamina SUCKS right now is no good.  Something needs to happen there.  Hm, I might as well take this chance to see what my “daily checklist” should look like:
-Exercise (taiji, sticking, or running)
-Stretch (takes like 2 minutes!)
-Make my bed (I don’t really do this nearly enough)
-Writing (either in my diary, or a letter, or the band scrapbook.  Blogging doesn’t count.)
-Socializing (phone calls count)
-Take a multivitamin (easy)

“Practice colemak” used to be here but I’m confident that’s not needed anymore.  Besides, I’m getting practice by read+typing Haruhi right now anyways.
I think I should add “music”.  I definitely want to keep making music, and I haven’t been doing enough of it.  Even producing electronica counts here, as long as I do -something- with music.  I’ve got 3 different instruments to play anyways.

Hm, anything else?  Actually, I think that might be it.  Well, actually I need to really, really make a great effort to go outside my dorm to socialize, since I’ve got 3-4 really good friend around campus.  Some of them aren’t very far away at all, either.

Living in my “own room” (not really, but basically) is going to be nice.  Or at least, a heck of a lot nicer than last year was.  Though you could consider that as somewhat of a good thing in that it motivated me to go out of my room.

As for GOING to classes…well, maybe I’ll be more motivated now that I have my laptop and can really use it.  Which means maybe going to class might not be a complete waste of time.  Especially if I know other people in the class….though, I still maintain that lectures are horrible for socializing.  Bah.  Well, we’ll see.  It’s not really the end of the world if I decide to start skipping classes again.  Heck, it even fits in with my plan to not work so hard…

So in the end, is all of this doable?  Probably.  Well, the finding myself thing might take a whole year, and is more of a gradual thing anyways, so that’s not -that- important.  The M rank is doable.  The exercise is doable.  The music every day is doable.  I’m a little afraid the coding might not be doable because I’m already taking 2 solid CS classes.  But god dammit, I -want- to get around to this!  So I’ll do my best, at least.

Oops, I forgot another one.  To be more “aware” of things that are going on in the world.  I’ve always been so totally ignorant of “real world” things like government, politics, etc etc.  To a large extent I’ve been absolutely content with this, and to a large extent I still am.  But I think I should at least be a little bit more aware of what happens in realms that are a little more relevant to me–realms like the gaming industry, for example.  Something I realized when I was doing somewhat of a “wikipedia cruise” through joelonsoftware.com was that hey, I =like= reading about things that are relevant to me.  And heck, I already check a million and one inactive blogs every day.  Why not add some relevant technology (or, god help me, “real world”) sites or blogs into the mix?  Can’t hurt to check slashdot, for example.

AIM pf

I’m trying to think of a new system to display this stuff:
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Welcome to Timm[ie]’s profile. Does anybody even look at this?

<-(My Website)

Xanga

Facebook

currently: Setting up youtube
This update’s “thing that’s cool”: Diablo 2

Wanted/Getting:
Sanrio Pen/pencil combo
Cute Binder
New whiteboard
Cute envelopes (not stationery)
Starbucks cards
Fuzzy slippers
Hello Kitty Big City Dreams (DS)
Negima!? Neo

Peace
Love
Unity
Respect

“Keep smiling, and make beautiful music with your life!”
–Kristina Finnegan

“The hole =always= dresses the form.”
“Sometimes I wish I were a girl just to have pretty hair.”
“If the world is round, then you only need to look at it the right way in order to be on top of the world!”
–Timm[ie] Wong

“endlessly loving you…”
“Be Happy”

awesome list: 31 girls
Last ppl to make my day:
Amy on 8/13/09 (Thursday)
Joy on 8/20/09 (Thursday)
Bonnie on 8/22/09 (Saturday)
Amy on 8/23/09 (Sunday)
Juliann on 8/27/09 (Thursday)

Ongoing Projects
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Letters written so far: 220 (avg 0.279 per day)
Band Scrapbook: Writing page 9 — 10/60 pics so far (17%)
Xanga: Kristina, September 2004
Great Pics: Not started

Reading
Haruhi light novel vol 2 (Amphetype): Chapter 5
Twilight: Chapter 1

Watching
Chi’s Sweet Home 15/104
Shugo Chara 12/51
Kaze no Stigma Done!
A Little Snow Fairy Sugar 4/24
Naruto Shippuden 124/?
Prism Ark 4/12

Playing
Amazing Mirror – Haven’t started
Super Star Ultra – Haven’t opened
Henry Hatsworth – Done, ? (Gentlemen’s mode)

TAP Death – Lvl 475
Typomino 40 lines – 0:57

Colemak
30 seconds – 113 wpm
1 minute – 100 wpm
2 minutes – 98 wpm
5 minutes – 93 wpm

D2
Reinier – Lvl 37 Avenger Paladin – Act 1 Nightmare
Ada – Lvl 40 PS Assassin – Act 1 Nightmare
Eirie – Lvl 46 LF Amazon – Act 1 Nightmare
Kharhthrahk – Lvl 39 Fishymancer – Act 1 Nightmare

Tetris Attack (retired)
2PTT 44332, 1PTT 41372, Endless 6:35
Puzzle League GBA No Lift Faster
TT 56062, Endless 5:53.38

Speedcubing (retired)
Best Avg-17.161 nonrolling
Best Single-13.05 unlucky/11.28 lucky

Quotes
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“Timm[ie], you are awesome; but I’m sure you know. So, I’ll draw you toast.”–Belinda Hu

“CRAISINS PARTY!!!”–Kelley Le

Piyo o Miyo o: brb i think my house is on fire

OranjiMame: uh…i am going to shut down the computer since it’s on fire, be back in ten

Apollo7z7: your face looks like someone tried to put out a forest fire with a screwdriver

Phoenix7z7: ow
Phoenix7z7: just punched myself in the face

Phoenix7z7: i’m hella black now

Phoenix7z7: i’m hella cool
Phoenix7z7: cuz
Phoenix7z7: i met a blind guy today

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one problem is that I have to convert it all to plaintext because Digsby doesn’t support html in profiles (which probably makes sense because probably not all protocols support it).  The other problem is that I’d like to put it somewhere more visible.  The problem is that there’s nowhere really visible.  I have an HTML box app on fb but lets face it, no one’s really gonna look at that.  Maybe I could blast it on my About Me section…